I have started to psycho analyze myself which is never a good thing. For reasons that I can never fully explain to anyone, I have been having some anxiety attacks and they really aren't that pretty. What's odd is that I have been removed from the situation that has sparked these reactions for several months. I suppose it is the added stress of going back to school, being a single parent (with a lot of support from family and friends), major changes at work and cultivating a new romantic relationship (which should take a lot of work but oddly enough, it really has come entirely too easy).
While a lot of this is good stress, it is still hard to understand why I have reacted in such a way to certain things. I realize that no harm could have come to me in those instances but I still had an unexplainable panic. I suppose it was the inability to control the situation. You become helpless and you freeze.
It helps that someone very close to me has an anxiety disorder and can completely understand. Although mine has just reared it's ugly head, his has been ongoing for several years and has hindered him from fully enjoying life. Things he was once able to do, he can no longer participate in for fear of having an attack. While I hope that his gets better, I'm praying that mine doesn't become a full blown anxiety disorder. I suppose the only thing for me to do is continue to lean on God and rely on faith that He will see us both through.
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