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Monday, July 7, 2008

Anticipation is killer

I guess we all have those moments that we feel everything is slightly less than perfect. Lately, I have been feeling as though everything is just shy of being completely right. I don’t even really know what it is that I‘m missing. It’s like I’m waiting for something massively important. Anticipating this thing that I have no clue how to prepare myself for.

Sometimes I wonder if that’s what life is about. Waiting. Is that what we do? We wait for something big to happen. A conversation from Dazed & Confused continually comes to mind when these moods come upon me. It is a philosophical conversation. . .at least as philosophical as Dazed & Confused can get. They discuss how everything is simply preparation for something else. But what we are preparing for? Mike in all his optimism states that we are only waiting for death however, that’s not exactly my sentiments.


There are things that I enjoy and things that I continually work on. I consider myself under construction. I have learned a lot about myself as well as people around me. But what I can’t understand and what really gets under my skin is this feeling that I’m missing out on something that is so obvious. Like not wearing shoes to work.


I suppose that when the pieces all come together you just know. Like you just know when you’re missing something. Don’t get me wrong, I am certainly content with the way things are, but there is something out there that’s waiting just for me.

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