I was in the shower this morning and was getting out when I realized that I hadn’t washed my hair. My mind was so preoccupied that I didn’t even notice that I hadn’t done it until after I had turned off the water and grabbed a towel so I had to turn the water back on and get back in the shower.
As I turned the water back on, I thought, “Here I go again, over analyzing a situation I have absolutely no control over.” I have such a hard time learning that what is meant to be will find a way and just letting it go. I find that I let whatever is on my mind rule me and that can’t happen. I’m always so curious to know the why’s and how’s that I can never fully let go and just enjoy what life hands me. I can never just enjoy a moment because I‘m wondering what would happen next.
Sometimes it’s good to refrain yourself from doing certain things. Other times it is not. Either way, I’m always left with a sense of “what if”. I don’t want to live a life of regret and sometimes my thoughts and my restraint keeps me from doing what I really should have done. I spend more time weighing out the options than realizing what is in front of me at any particular moment.
I sincerely hope that I am not the only person who does this. That would mean that I am much more hopeless than I originally thought. That would be a sad state of affairs.
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