Yucky guy

I was on my way back to work from a frantic lunch of shopping as I passed a church sign that said, "Beware of the high cost of low living." Of course the meaning speaks for itself. There's not much need to expound but I decided to share my little spin on it. You definitely won't see this on a church sign. . .well, maybe. Here it is: Being skeezy ain't easy.

There are a few people that I know that love the bar life. They love chasing skirt and casual encounters are nothing. They have no one to answer to, regardless of who they hurt in the process, which is typically themselves. Every day is surreal. It's a haze. Their minds are so inundated with alcohol and promiscuity they can't even function. They live to go to the same place every night, look at the same people and drink enormous amounts of alcohol.

Don't get me wrong. I enjoy going out from time to time. I enjoy a nice dirty martini or glass of wine, but my life is so much fuller for having relationships rather than acquaintances and being able to remember the things that I experience without the effects of a hangover to hinder.

I'm not saying that everyone who hangs out at a bar is that type of person either but life is not always one big party. There are things that need to be cultivated to ensure that your latter years will truly be golden. I hope that these people that I know don't wake up one day and they're 35 years old with nothing show for it but an unimpressive long list of sexual partners and liver disease due to years of intoxicating themselves.

So you get all this because of a single sign that I saw on the way back to work from lunch. Imagine what happens when I read a paragraph.

Oops, I did it again

I was in the shower this morning and was getting out when I realized that I hadn’t washed my hair. My mind was so preoccupied that I didn’t even notice that I hadn’t done it until after I had turned off the water and grabbed a towel so I had to turn the water back on and get back in the shower.

As I turned the water back on, I thought, “Here I go again, over analyzing a situation I have absolutely no control over.” I have such a hard time learning that what is meant to be will find a way and just letting it go. I find that I let whatever is on my mind rule me and that can’t happen. I’m always so curious to know the why’s and how’s that I can never fully let go and just enjoy what life hands me. I can never just enjoy a moment because I‘m wondering what would happen next.

Sometimes it’s good to refrain yourself from doing certain things. Other times it is not. Either way, I’m always left with a sense of “what if”. I don’t want to live a life of regret and sometimes my thoughts and my restraint keeps me from doing what I really should have done. I spend more time weighing out the options than realizing what is in front of me at any particular moment.

I sincerely hope that I am not the only person who does this. That would mean that I am much more hopeless than I originally thought. That would be a sad state of affairs.